It's been over a month since I last wrote. I was not trying leave you all in the dust but sometimes we need to step back from even good things and get a handle on life.
After finals and over the next 2 years I had anxiety but was able to manage it. I started to not have panic attacks. I started loving life more. I started going on trips. I started trusting myself. I started being me again. I was on a daily medication which for me was both needed and such a blessing.
In May of 2011 I started getting really tired every day and had headaches that would not go away. I went to see the doctor and she thought it was my dosage of medicine and that it was too high. I was in agreement and we lowered the dosage. I did great! We lowered it a few months later again and again my anxiety was awesome! I was down to 10mg of the medicine which is the lowest dose you can take and after an appointment with my doctor this past December we decided to see if I could be completely off the medicine. I did everything right. I slowly tapered off.I listened to my doctor. Everything was perfect. (HA!)
The beginning of January I noticed a bit of my anxiety returning which I expected and was prepared, but I wasn't prepared for what I was going to experience. Not only did my anxiety come back, it came back with a vengeance.I worked with it as best I could until February and than went back in to see the doctor. At that point we decided to start the medicine again. Let me give you some insight.........the get the medicine into your body and working well it can take 5 weeks to several months. For me it was months. So, I will spend the next few entries opening up and telling you what the last several months have been like for me. Scary? Sure. But I knew I could do it.
