Catch Up

I have not written in several days because frankly, working with anxiety is a little bit like trying to nail jello to a wall. It's tricky, messy, and a bit insane.

Last we talked I was really struggling. I still am. Anxiety medication can take 6 to 8 weeks to work and than once it's semi working the doctor usually decides to tinker with it a little more. Too much and your tired, too little and running 50 miles sounds like a breeze.

Last week I had several things to be proud of myself about. I worked 1/2 day everyday. Some days staying until 1 or 2. I went with my husband to some friends house for dinner. On Sat, even thought I wasn't feeling great we went to Cannon Beach and drove around. These are all very important things and things to be proud of fit myself.

I am feeling better than last week, and much better than the week before, but I am still trudging through this. This week I am supposed to start back full time. I make it a big deal in my head and than realize that it's ridiculous because people are on my side, cheering me on, praying for me, etc.

I am very anxious about starting back at full time, but I know what to do if I can't. I have nothing to worry about and u know that, but anxiety wants me to forget that my God goes before me and is on my side.

Thought of the day: Anxiety is difficult, but so is being the friend or spouse of someone anxious. Next time I will be blogging about anxiety and how it can be worked with in a relationship.

Thank you,

Erin